The First Day Of The Rest Of Our Lives

Right now it’s 2pm on Monday, November 6th, 2017. I’m sitting in my bed trying to figure out whether the past few weeks of my life were for the best or for the worst, and I’m leaning on God to lead me towards that answer. For those who don’t know, when I was about 7 months pregnant my boyfriend was incarcerated and sent to federal prison. The judge

denied his bail, and we’ve been fighting his case since then. I shared this story with my mailing list, as well as here on Black Moms Blog. This past week we were finally able to take a few steps forward as we’ve finally started to come to terms with what the next few years will look like. Although I was praying and hoping with all my might that he would be coming home any day now, the reality is that he will not be home for a couple years. Of course that news was devastating to us in the beginning, but with the help of our family, I’ve been able to see the blessing in it. And believe me that was a hardddddd blessing to see! For the past few weeks I had been debating on if I wanted to share this side of my life publicly, but ultimately I decided that I had to do it. Not only for myself, but also for people who might need strength in their own battles. During this experience I have pulled strength from places and people that I never would’ve thought could give it. The moral here is that your story could truly be a blessing for someone else, no matter how hard it is for you to experience it. A few weeks ago I received an email from a girl who happened to come across the article I wrote for Black Moms Blog. She told me that my story moved her to tears and made her want to reach out to me. Her email moved me because I felt like it was God pushing me even further towards transparency. In order to move forward in my life and in entrepreneurship, I need to be more transparent. Transparency doesn’t mean that I’m going to be telling you guys every move I make in my private life, it just means that I’m opening up to you guys so that we can all pull inspiration from each other. When I started this blog I wanted to create a platform where women could go for inspiration and encouragement. I truly believe that this experience and the people I’ve met along the way have helped to push me towards that goal. So now that you know what’s been going on with me, I can now start to move forward. One of the major questions I’ve been asking myself is: What now? How do I move forward? The answer to that is that I just keep pushing forward. Nothing has changed. Yes things are more final now, and we know that we’re looking at being separated for a couple years, but what has really changed? My boyfriend has been incarcerated for over 18 months. I have already been through the hardest part, which was the beginning. Now I just have to keep pushing. I have to continue achieving my goals and planning for our biggest blessings. I’m currently reading a memoir by Angie Martinez called “My Voice“. This book has surprisingly inspired me in so many ways! One memorable line from it was a message Angie received from Jay-Z when she announced that she would be leaving Hot 97. He said: “Your future is ahead of you. Imagine the notion of the past 15 years of your life being a blip in your story“. This quote stuck with me because it’s so true! Although I can’t see it now, one day I will wake up and this whole experience will be such a small part of my life. I can’t wait for that feeling! For now my plan is to just keep moving. Today I took the day off from work to make my game plan and begin executing it. I know there will be several bumps in the road, and many tears and hard nights, but I’ve been through that, and I’m still here! It didn’t break me! I can do this! I’m ready! 💕

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